This being has had severe poisoning. There is an imbalance, a toxic condition. Do not fear, dear one, this can be righted with a pure diet, healing, and rest. Trust in your inner self. You know this, my dear. You know your inner strength. You have been a powerhouse in the past and it shall return. You have been looking to outside places for your help instead of inside. Take the time for some quiet reflection, meditation, talks with your body. Imbalances such as this are a condition when one is overburdened by the many toxins in your physical world. But mostly for you this occurred from a situation that happened when you were approximately thirteen years of age.

No. Do not be afraid. This can be balanced. Seek the information that feels right to you; nothing bizarre or ridiculous.  Find a truth that you can follow and heal by. The pain in your body is telling you that it needs attention, so take time and listen.  You are the best one to know what is happening in your body. So, listen to it. Give it its voice. This is difficult as you have been so involved in the paint, but it is not impossible.

Remember, you are the teacher of your own path and you are the one in control, my dear. You are overwhelmed at this time. Be still. There is not only one thing to address; there are many things. Vitamin C helps to detoxify. Look at many of the natural things to help with this.

You are not alone my dearest. There is a way. You will find it. You know very well that this is part of your growing.  A part of you never truly understood the wonder of your body. It is not the whole of this, but part of this is occurring now. Be patient.  Love yourself.  Give yourself some attention and honour. You are not alone.